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The Personality Fluctuation of an Anxiety-Ridden Student of Life

Ready, Set, Done! – A Response to the Daily Post prompt

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It’s strange.

I feel like I am a different person every day, or maybe every other day. One day, I will be confident, persuasive, extroverted, rambunctious. The next, I will be reclusive, introverted, perfectly happy surrounded by nothing more than my drawing tablet, cup of coffee, and my laptop on full-charge playing some Ingrid Michaelson as background music. How does this change? How do I transition between two completely different phases, two personalities that could essentially house two different bodies but instead cozy up to each other in this one individual: me?

Some days, I am pained by the glance of strangers, while other days, it’s perfectly easy to return a smile, strike a conversation. On the days when I don’t wish to return the favor, I can feel their eyes burning into my cheek like they’re branding me with their look. I can actually feel the blood rush to my face, rising and burning like flames under my skin. But when I smile back, there’s mutual acknowledgement, and the glance is dropped. Something about people avoiding elongated eye contact… At these points, I feel like I reversed the reaction.

There are days when I enjoy the spotlight, basking in the glow of my accomplishments. And then, on the opposing end, there are moments when I hope to god that no one mentions that I was the culprit of something, even if it were a wonderful thing. The pressure to perform on these days makes me feel like a seasoned actress.

The weirdest part of it all is that I’m never really too sure which personality will be more dominant each morning I wake up. I accept them both lovingly though. I adore my extroverted, loud-and-proud side just as equally as the less showy introverted side I possess. I believe it all really depends on the anxiety I experience on a day to day basis. When its grip isn’t as strong, I’m more outward and upfront. There’s no barricade preventing me from projecting myself. But this isn’t to say that on the days I prefer being alone, I am generally anxious. Anxiety certainly contributes though, at least to some of these days. I have to wonder if the anxiety I experience is what maintains my ambiversion, or if naturally I am comprised of elements from both sides that sometimes just separate more distinctly on specific days.

Anyone else feel like they’re housing two opposing personalities in one body sometimes?

Do you prefer one side over the other?

Daily Writing Prompt: Dig through your purse and discuss the contents that you find.

One of the best methods to learn about an individual’s interests it to investigate the contents of their purse. Obviously that doesn’t mean dive right in without their permission. With that being said, let’s get started on the contents of my own purse, one that I frequently use and rarely clean out!

The first object I pulled out was my Nexus 7 tablet. This tablet was originally given to me to assist me in my extracurriculars at school, and has proven much more useful than that. When my computer has issues, the first device I turn to is, of course, my tablet, because it’s compact, it can hold all of my assignments, I can access all the necessary resources to get my work done, and it has the same essential capabilities! During the Summer, I like to bring it with my on my Barnes and Noble outings, and other places with free wifi! 

The next item removed from my purse was my Trublend Minerals powder makeup. My skin gets really shiny throughout the day, so I’m usually carrying this when I’m headed out for a busy day so I can manage to get some touch ups every now and then. I’m not a sponsor or anything for this brand, but if you have severe acne like I do, you should definitely give this powder product a shot! It has a beautiful, light finish, lasts a decently long time, and is relatively gentle on the skin! What’s not to love?!

Next up is my “Blazing Lava” lipstick, by L’oreal. It has a red, glittery tint and applies lightly at first, which looks great for everyday use and, when applied heavier, is essential for a night out. I found this lipstick to be a great buy. Originally, I was skeptical about purchasing this particular one because someone in the store had broken it, but I really wanted to try the color, so i let the doubt slide off of my back. And turns out it’s an essential part of my beauty routine!

Here we go. Two Yogurtland spoons. A couple of days ago, my sweetheart and I ended up going on a date to Yogurtland to get some froyo before he went out on a trip with his family. We had an amazing time, I filled my belly with all kinds of sweets, and I got one of those cute little Yogurtland spoons that they give you with your froyo! The best part is that the spoons are all cute and colorful. I don’t even know if they’re reusable, but I reuse them in college. I really can’t ever have enough silverware.

Lastly, I have a water bottle because I can’t go anywhere without one. I have a real problem with not drinking enough water on a daily basis, so having it on hand and weighing down my purse gives me incentive to drink it, and it works! I tend to drink much more water without thinking about it, if I’m carrying it around.

So tell me, what do you have in your purse?

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Mandirito’s Daily Makeup Look <10 Minutes!!

I made a new video to show you guys how I get my everyday look under ten minutes. I’m no makeup expert obviously, but my routine is a quick and easy way to get fabulous for the day without the investment of lots of time! Hope you guys enjoy it! 🙂