Tonight I had the privilege of eating at, by far, one of the best authentic Mexican food joints I have ever encountered. My first impression was that every item on the menu looked like something that I would be interested in eating, which speaks volumes about the restaurant itself. Everything looked great. I ended up with the Burro Nohoch, which came with fried beans, the burro (containing steak, tomatoes, lettuce, and some sort of special sauce), and rice. The family that owns the joint were so sweet to us, and the father of the family was generous enough to serve us with a huge smile and a song he sung and played on his guitar. It was hard not to feel right at home. I would recommend this joint to anyone in the vicinity, as it is an experience that I will not soon forget.
Thank you for your kindness, hospitality, wonderful service, and incomparably delicious food.
Posted in Gratefulness, Memory, Personal, Thoughts
Tagged authentic mexican, beans, burrito, burro, cultural, delicious, experience, family owned, gratefulness, happiness, heart, location, recommendation, restaurant, review, rice, satisfied, small place, soulful, thoughts, yummy
She said I made her day, which pretty much made my month. A good deed goes a long way. I hope she ends up following her heart.
Posted in Encouragement, Memory, Personal
Tagged acquaintances, afraid, dreams, emotions, encouragement, experiences, fears, following your heart, friends, good deeds, heart, just met, life, strangers, strength, thoughts
Ever since I was younger, it had been engrained in my head that those who are expressive of their feelings are weaker than the rest of the population that does not. It was always a battle for who could put on the best mask and pretend like they had their whole lives together, much better than the next person. I had surrounded myself with people that I considered friends at the time, but people that had no intention of building strength in the bond. It was a negative time for me, being surrounded by this kind of mentality. The first time I had really broken down my barriers I had built was my first serious relationship, which lasted for around 4.5 years, and even then, there were times when I wanted to keep them out of conversation and out of mind. I did, however, realize something when that relationship ended. All the times that I kept my feelings to myself were the times when I was causing my own destruction. I wasn’t punishing anyone else but myself by letting my pain eat at what I thought to be an otherwise strong exterior. I did learn something, over these years. Losing a serious relationship, eliminating the friendships that were destructive to my own path, becoming increasingly independent as I realized what was permanent and what was temporary…. I learned that I am much stronger than I thought I was, and that others who show the same kinds of strength are those who are not afraid to be real. I screwed up thinking that I was weak because I was honest about my feelings. I should’ve been upfront from the start, but I let my apprehension to do so get the best of me.
Part of this journey to redefine my understanding is shown through my writing. Writing gives me the ability to be honest without direct confrontation, and is something that can be shared or reflected upon individually. I’m continuing to grow and develop my skills of communicating what I need and desire from my life and my relationships with others, and I think this was a crucial part of my journey: establishing up front that being true to yourself gives you the best chance at happiness. I’m well on my way.
As for you, find the people you trust. There are many people out for themselves these days, but if you can find a handful that love and respect you as they do for themselves, you’ll become closer to connecting your feelings with strength. Those who do not patronize you for your vulnerability, but stand by you, are essential to your journey to redefine what is believed to be weakness. Strength comes from the heart. Don’t let your heart by trumped by your head, because in the long run, you’ll need a level-headed, honest perception from both.
Posted in Encouragement, Personal, Relationships, Thoughts
Tagged assumption, bonds, desires, friendships, growth, head, heart, honest, labels, life, memories, my life, needs, people, perceptions, personal, personality, rationalization, real, realization, redefine strength, relationship, society, strength, strong, thoughts, weak, weakness
So many of my peers come to me with the same thoughts and feelings about how they want to pursue their dreams. They have so many ideas for what they want to do with their lives, but the lack of support they receive from family, especially parents, becomes a breaking point when the words are to be put to action. I, myself, struggled with this feeling. All of my life, I had the full intent to do something artistic. Of course, when you’re an artist, though, the responses that you receive when you explain that you want to pursue something “artistic” are less than satisfactory. Always the same shrugs, nose crinkles, head shakes, and sighs. I understand the discouragement that others in my situation have experienced. It took me some time to evaluate what I enjoyed doing other than artwork, and I came to the conclusion that I am skilled and find great fascination in the workings of the computer. It’s technology and artistry combined into one beautiful machine! That was when I knew that I could have it my way, and still get paid enough to be able to put food on the table.
Not all of our dreams are enough to make a living off of, unfortunately, which is discouraging at the least. But like my situation, though, when there is a will, there’s a way. If you want to pursue something that wouldn’t necessarily be successful in itself immediately (or would be something that would require more time to take off than a position in, say, an established company), evaluate how you can pursue it and still be able to pay for your necessities. As for my own experience, I’ve always wanted to break into the art world. Therefore, I am studying a major that is both practical and creative, while continuing my own creative pursuits on the side. Everything takes time, but knowing what you want and how to get it takes the “work” out of it. If you really want something, anything is possible if you put your focus on it.
When you’re choosing what to do with your life, don’t let the judgment of others cloud your own judgment. If you feel that you can do what you want to do and succeed, then it’s important that you do just that. They will not be living your life. You will. You’ll be going to work everyday. You want to make sure that what you dedicate your life to is an occupation that feels less like work and more like something you love. Don’t settle for something that doesn’t keep your heart happy by the end of the day.
What can you do to make your dreams a reality, and what stepping stones do you have to follow to get where you’d like to go in the future?
What is it about your goal occupation that makes you desire it, and how can practicality come into play to ensure your success?
Posted in College, Encouragement, Personal, Thoughts
Tagged artist, artwork, college, creativity, discourage, dreaming, dreams, encourage, expectations, experience, experiences, heart, hobbies, job, life, living, living standards, major, my experiences, opportunities, possibilities, pursue, pursuit, reality, success, successful, thoughts
Desperate. Pursuing. Yearning. She follows you to your car, with her sweet touch and the soft melody of her voice. You’re coaxed. She has you hanging by a thread, and she’s weaving it. She’s creating something with your weakness. Her fingers dance across the delicate intricacies of your weaknesses to create something regal out of you. She wants to make you into a sweater so she can wear you, clinging to her torso and begging to keep her warm. Intoxicating to be able to gain control and manipulate your feelings as if they were her own. If she had any, they’d be moldable, too, but they certainly wouldn’t be warm. They wouldn’t hold you tight on your coldest days or comfort you in your own weakness. If you were lucky, they wouldn’t freeze your heart inside your chest.
Posted in My Writing
Tagged emotions, feel, feelings, heart, longing, manipulation, moldable, my writing, pain, people, personality, sadness, strength, suffering, thoughts, vulnerability, vulnerable, weakness, yearning